Signing up for classes leads to the question “what classes should i take?”
….which inevitably leads to the terrifying question “what do i want to do with my life?”
….which seems to be a funny thing to consider seeing as im 18, just graduated high school 4 months ago, and don’t even know what im having for dinner tommorow.
And so ensues a gigantic internal battle between all my conflicting interests of international relations, political science, marine biology, environmental policy, etc and of course the struggle to decide between pursuing something i love vs. pursuing something that will make me the big bucks/aka something i dont love.
And what makes it all the more complicated is that my parents are paying a shitload of money for my college education, which in turn puts pressure on me to make that money worth it.
I know I have the capability to go into a variety of different fields as long as I set my mind to it- so I could potentially go into computer science or engineering or another science…..but I could never forgive myself if I don’t find any true meaning in my career.
So. Either I stick with my humanities track. Or I could go completely insane and try to double major with a more ‘substantial’/’professional’ major just to cover all the bases.
Things to consider at midnight. And all because of fucking Telebears which gave me ghost units so now I have to storm the registrar tommorow morning so I can enroll in my classes correctly -.-
But at the end of the day, this is what I want out of my life in case I ever forget or get confused along the way:
-to wake up every morning and be inspired, excited, passionate, and motivated to go to work
-it doesn’t have to be a picnic everyday, but I need to feel like I’m contributing to this world and making a real impact on people’s lives
-need to work with people and have social relationships
-have a comfortable income and be able to support myself and help out my parents
-feel like I’m part of a bigger picture and an important cause
-feel like I’m serving the community
I think thats it. End rant and other random thoughts spewing out of my head tonight. Thought i had my life all planned out….turns out I’m just as confused as ever. yay for adult life GOOD NIGHT